Rest In Me

     This past week has had me looking back over the past two years that our little family has lived through. They have been two years full of constant adjustments and new challenges. Why these two years and not other years? These two years are growing years from a year that brought our family some of our greatest challenges. We realized that in spite of these seemingly insurmountable and overwhelming challenges how tremendously blessed we were. We continue to be tremendously blessed even though we meet new challenges. I remember back to the feelings of great despair, suffocating anxiety and the feeling of being lost in a dark sinking oblivion-not knowing what to do or what to think. Broken but knowing that none of these feelings were an option at that moment in time. I had to rise above. I had to breathe. I had to think. Here is when I found myself in the only place that made any sense. On my knees! The only place I could find that was quiet and secure for my jumbled messy thought filled brain and the only place I could find rest for my weary and heavy heart was prayer. I knew it was time for me to quit trying to carry all of this on my inadequate shoulders and instead lay all of this in the capable strong arms of my Jesus. He knew I had bared all I could at that moment and he was there ready to carry all of my jumbled mess, all I had to do was give it to Him. Release trying to control it all and lay it on Him. By faith. Faith that I didn't think I was capable of having......but when the time was right He showed me. I had finally become receptive to His quiet prodding- "Rest in me."