Journey to grace. 2012 brought our family life saving surgery for my husband. An emergency surgery that unfolded within days and had us in a state of the art Institute with a team of doctors and nurses that saved his life. None of us had a chance to really think about anything before it all took place. It was a matter of digesting as we went. Never really being able to digest much of anything in the moment but more or less moving through what was placed before us. Numb, overwhelmed and consumed by everything that was taking place left me only one place to be and that was on my knees seeking shelter in prayer. Trying to find the comfort and reassurance I felt as a child. All the while trying to fortify my heart and mind against the knowledge of the truth, that things may not go the way I'd like. The only place I found the strength needed to keep moving forward was in prayer and faith.
The surgery came and went and 2012 moved along into 2013 and then 2014 with lots of adjustments, learning and life changes but things were looking good for us. By the beginning of 2015 we had inklings that we may be up for the surgery again. But we had hopes that we were being over sensitive and a little paranoid. By the first signs of Spring it was confirmed. We would be repeating the surgery. Quick again. Except for 3 extra days this time before the surgery. These days were sheer hell. Too much time to think. But having done this once before we moved through the 3 days with as much poise as we could muster and bolstered each other and prayed a lot. This time, although the surgery was the same, everything was very different. Again life changing. Again on my knees finding shelter in prayer and strength in faith. Again fortifying my heart and mind. Again difficult but this time more consuming difficulties. Another surgery done. The days passed by and healing came slowly. Spring changed to summer .... still healing....seeking grace.
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